Chapter 14 - Beginning or the End?



[In the other room]

Everyone: WHAT?! *shocked expressions on their faces*


Mrs. Seo: Oh... my poor child... Yeobo, what should we do? *hides her face in her husbands chest*


Mr. Seo: Calm down, dear... *slowly soothes his wife's back*


JungShin: I never thought such thing would actually happen to someone I know. Especially, Hyun.


JongHyun: You're right... she's so innocent and pure that nobody would ever think she had such bad experience.


YongHwa: *clenching his fists, raging in anger*


After the hypnosis session with Dr. Im, SeoHyun was wheeled back to her ward and calmed down with medication injection into her. After that, SeoHyun fell into a calm sleeping position and this lasted for atleast another 2-3 hours.


Mr. Seo: YongHwa-shii, I think I have to talk to you about something.


YongHwa: Yes, ajusshi?


Mr. Seo: Well... you can see that uri-Hyun is not in a good state now. I think she will have difficulties in resuming her job as your manager now.


YongHwa: *slowly absorbing the fact* She... she... is.


Mr. Seo: Yes... so if you would convey the message to your boss, I would be so thankful. She needs a break from all this things now. She has to forget everything now, and start rebuilding her life.


YongHwa: Yes, ajusshi. It wouldn't be a problem. SeoHyun does need all the time she has to recuperate...


After that conversation, SeoHyun was declared fit by Dr. Im to be discharged. SeoHyun now remembers that horrible incident which she selectively chose to forget after she had been sexually harassed. She isn't going through a mental breakdown but is trying her best to live with it. Yet, SeoHyun did not object the idea of leaving the C.N.Blue boys and going away because all she wants to do now is run away from CS. She want to leave the dorm and go to a place where he will never ever find her. She's scared... scared that she will be hurt again.


One night, SeoHyun came back to the dorm to get her belongings. It was quite late at night so that she can avoid any crazy fans. As she unlocked the door with the password, SeoHyun was not surprised to see that nobody was at home at that time. The boys usually have schedules even at this time of the night. If there is one thing that the boys don't have, it will be sufficient rest. Eventhough she misses the members, SeoHyun was relieved that they are not around. This way, she can pack her stuff and leave silently, without anybody noticing her departing.



SeoHyun: *mumbling to herself* Now, there's no one but me... it is so silent.



SeoHyun walked towards her room and pushed the door open. Yes, everything was the same. Nothing changed or moved during her stay in the hospital. Suddenly, a wave of sadness just swept through her. The room in front of her had so many sweet memories, but now she has no choice but to leave. She wanted so much to stay here with a job that she started to love, yet the fear in her heart makes every possibility impossible to achieve. She knew she would eventually leave. She knew it... but she just couldn't stop her tears from dropping.


SeoHyun: I hate you, CS... why did you do this to me? Why did you create such fear in me? I genuinely loved you. Now I have to leave everything that I love behind. EVERYTHING! *shouting to nobody*


Right at that moment, SeoHyun felt somebody place a hand on her shoulders. She was shocked and turned around to find YongHwa standing there.


SeoHyun: OPP...OPPA?!

YongHwa: Yeah, it is me. SeoHyun ah... kwenchana?

SeoHyun: Yes... I'm okay. I'm fine. *quickly wiping away her tears*

YongHwa: Hyun ah ... It's okay if you want to cry. I know you feel so miserable now. Please, just let it out.

SeoHyun: No... I'm fine. *quickly walks into the room to find something to do*

YongHwa: SeoHyun ah, you don't trust me? *going near her*

SeoHyun: Ani... I am really okay. *moving away from YongHwa*

YongHwa: Hyun ah...

SeoHyun: Oppa, I am really okay! *turning away from YongHwa because she feels like she can't control her tears again*

YongHwa: If you're okay then face me, and tell me in the eyes.

SeoHyun: Oppa... don't be ridiculous. I will just start packing my things. *starting to find for her luggage bag*

YongHwa: SeoHyun ah, look at me! *roughly pulling her to face him*

SeoHyun: *a face full of expressionless tears*

YongHwa: *feeling a huge pain in his heart* Hyun ah... don't cry.

SeoHyun: *still sobbing*

YongHwa: *pulling SeoHyun into his arms* Hyun ah, oppa is here... You know that everything is the past. You know that you are fine now, right?

SeoHyun: Oppa... I know... but...

YongHwa: Hyun ah... it's okay. I understand.

SeoHyun: Oppa... I'm scared. I so scared that I can't even sleep well every night. Everytime I close my eyes, I see that flashback again. Everytime... I'm afraid that he will come back to find me.


YongHwa: No, Hyun. He will not... everything is in the past now.


SeoHyun: NO! He sent me the letter remember? It means he knows I AM HERE! *sobbing even harder*


YongHwa: *hugging SeoHyun closer to his body* SeoHyun ah... it's okay. We are all here for you, remember? You have us. You won't be harmed.


SeoHyun: But... but... I am really frightened. My heart just won't be at ease.


YongHwa: Hyun ah, listen to me! *gently pushing SeoHyun's chin up to look her into the eye*


SeoHyun: *momentarily shocked at YongHwa's tone*


YongHwa: Hyun ah, nobody will be able to hurt you okay? Because I will always be there for you. I will be there for you...


SeoHyun: Oppa...


YongHwa: Hyun ah... in these few months of living together, I... I start realise how much I need to see you. I am so used to your presence now that I cannot imagine life without you. Maybe you will think that I am exxagerating but... I cannot describe the feeling of waking up and not smell the breakfast you make for us every morning. I cannot describe the emptiness in this dorm when you are not here with the happiness in you. Hyun ah... how am I to describe the loneliness I feel inside?


SeoHyun: Oppa... you...


YongHwa: Hyun ah, can you please stay by my side? *looks directly into her eyes*


SeoHyun: Oppa... *shocked with her mouth slightly agape*


YongHwa: Will you...?


SeoHyun: Oppa, are you saying that you have feelings for me. too?


YongHwa: More than you can imagine... *smiling from end to end*


SeoHyun: *tears start to fall again* I thought I was the only foolish one who was falling for you, Jung Yong Hwa. Why didn't you tell me earlier?


YongHwa: I hadn't got the chance and I wasn't sure of my feelings. But now, I'm sure that all I want to do is protect you. Because, you're important to me, SeoHyun.


SeoHyun: *hugs him closer and bury's her face into his chest*


YongHwa: I take this as a yes?


SeoHyun: *looks up* Although I really want to leave this place, although I am really scared of the future, but I choose to believe you oppa. I choose to believe that you really love me, and will protect me. Because... I fell for Jung Yong Hwa. *finally giving him a smile*


Chapter 13 - Hypnosis

[The next morning]


When C.N.Blue members had some free time in the morning before their schedule starts, all four of them took a cab to Muchangpo Hospital to visit SeoHyun again. Actually, YongHwa wanted to go alone since he knew that SeoHyun was going to meet a psycologist this morning. But, when the other members heard that he was going to the hospital, all of them wanted to know the truth behind SeoHyun's condition.


[At the hospital - SeoHyun's Ward]


YongHwa entered SeoHyun's ward first and the first thing his eyes set upon was the beautiful girl whom he admires. She was lying there peacefully, without fear on her face. She was deep asleep. The next thing that came into sight was Mr. and Mrs.Seo. Mr. Seo was sleeping on the nearby sofa while Mrs. Seo just laid her head onto the side of SeoHyun's bed. She wasn't asleep by the time the boys came in. She was looking at her daughter worriedly, although SeoHyun was already in deep sleep.


C.N.Blue: *softly* Anyonghaseyo...


Mrs. Seo: Anyonghaseyo... please come in quietly. Thank you all for coming again.


YongHwa: Aniya, ahjumma. How is SeoHyun last night? She was sleeping like this for long?


Mrs. Seo: No... she just fell asleep maybe 2-3 hours ago. She just keep blinking blankly to the ceiling all night long till she was too tired to resist. Oh... my poor daughter.


JongHyun: Ahjumma... you haven't slept all night?


Mrs. Seo: I tried, but I can't. Sigh... how could I when my beautiful baby is like this? *tears starting to fall again*


JungShin: Aigoo... ahjumma. Don't worry too much. The doctors will eventually figure out her problem and they will treat her. Don't worry.


MinHyuk: Neh ahjumma... Why don't you get some rest before the psycologist calls for Hyun? It won't be long from now. She is scheduled for this morning.


Mrs. Seo: Okay... I guess I should. Please look after her. Wake me up instantly when she wakes up, okay?


YongHwa: Yes, Mrs. Seo. Please don't worry yourself and have some rest.


Mrs. Seo eventually took a short nap on an empty chair before the nurse came in with a wheelchair to wheel SeoHyun out to the psycology department. SeoHyun was sleeping peacefully until the nurse came. YongHwa was half-cursing the nurse's arrival that disturbed SeoHyun but he knew that she needs to be treated immediately. They all started walking out together with SeoHyun to the psycology department. To other people's eyes, they were a huge gang. As if two elder people and 4 older brothers accompanying their sickly sister.


[Psycology Department]


Nurse: Eh! All of you cannot follow her into the consultation room. Please stay outside.


Mrs. Seo: No! She needs me. I need to know what happen. I need to see the whole process by myself and not have the doctor explain to me second-hand. PLEASE!


Nurse: But...


Mr.Seo: Please, nurse. She is our only daughter.


Nurse: Wait awhile. I have to consult the doctor. *goes in to ask the doctor something*


JungShin: What do you think they will do? *generally asking nobody*


Nurse: *comes back to them* Okay, follow me to another room.


The whole gang walked to the other end of the long corridor and stopped in front of a door.


Nurse: Here. This is a room where you can witness the doctor and the patient when they are in the midst of a treatment. It is usually used by the police department when mentally-disturbed criminals are here. The doctor say it is okay for you all to watch her since he is only going to be asking questions today. Please wait inside.


YongHwa lead the group by opening the door. The room was fairly empty. It has 4 walls and one side, which is next to the room where the doctor is going to treat SeoHyun, is fixed with tinted glass. SeoHyun cannot see that they are watching her, but they definitely can see her progress.


MinHyuk: I feel like I'm a police or something. A room used by the police department? Wow... I never expected this.


JongHyun: Ah... when is she coming in?


Just then, the door on the other room opens and SeoHyun is wheeled in. She is still unresponsive to anything and her eyes looks blank to the front. Upon witnessing her entrance, Mr. Seo embraces Mrs. Seo into his arms. YongHwa admires Mr. Seo's manliness and love towards his family. How he wish that he could be as dependable as him. But, YongHwa knew he is still far from being a dependable man. Right after SeoHyun's entrance, the psycologist follows behind. After that, they heard the psycologist in the other room through an intercom that wasn't very visible in the dark room.


Psycologist: Hello, SeoHyun. *very cheerful*


SeoHyun: *no response*


Psycologist: My name is Dr. Im. Im YoonA.


SeoHyun: *still no response*


Dr.Im: Can we talk for a while?


SeoHyun: *stares blankly into space*


Dr.Im: Okay then, SeoHyun. If you don't want to talk, then let's play a game. Hey! See this? *takes out a pendulum watch*


SeoHyun: *doesn't bother to see*


Dr.Im: This is a pendulum watch. Now, I'm going to swing this watch in front of you. Your job is to force yourself to be awake while you watch the watch intently. Get it?


SeoHyun: *no answer*


Dr.Im: Okay then. 1, 2, 3... start! *swings the watch left... right... left... right...*


-In the other room-


JungShin: Hyung, is she hypnotising Hyun? Why is she hypnotising her for?


YongHwa: I don't know. Well, just leave her be. I'm sure the doctor have her own reason.


-The doctor's room-


Dr.Im: SeoHyun-shii... are you still awake? SeoHyun-shii...


SeoHyun: *starts to close her eyes gradually*


Dr.Im: SeoHyun-shii...


SeoHyun: *closes her eyes*


Dr.Im: SeoHyun-shii...


SeoHyun: Neh...? *very softly*


-In the other room-


Mrs. Seo: *alarmingly loud* YEOBO! SHE'S ANSWERING!


Mr. Seo: Yeobo... shush! You might disrupt the process.


-In the doctors room-


Dr.Im: SeoHyun-shii, are you here with me?


SeoHyun: Eh...? Where am I? *softly*


Dr.Im: Oh... you're at the place where you suffered the most... don't you remember?


SeoHyun: Place...? That place? Oh right... it is that place. Help me! I don't want to be here!


Dr.Im: I will help you... but, where are you now?


SeoHyun: I... I... I'm at the park behind my school.


Dr.Im: Go home then. You know the way home, right?


SeoHyun: I know... but... but... I can't...


Dr. Im: Why can't you? Go home...


SeoHyun: CS... CS...


Dr.Im: CS? Who is CS?


SeoHyun: My boyfriend... he asked me out on a date...

Dr.Im: Is it late?

SeoHyun: Yes... I snuck out at around 11PM when my parents were asleep. CS says he's going to bring me to the nearest club tonight. He said we're going to have fun tonight.

Dr.Im: Ah... did you guys have fun then?

SeoHyun: We were suppose to... but... we met CS's friends in the club. They were drinking heavily...

Dr.Im: How did you go into the club anyway? Aren't you underage?

SeoHyun: CS got me a fake ID. Everybody does that, it seems.

Dr.Im: Ah... I guess so. Trust me, I tried it once too when I was young. So you have nothing to worry about. So, were you drinking heavily too?

SeoHyun: No... I was drinking, but just slowly sipping the alcohol. It was my first time drinking it and I decided that it isn't nice to drink at all. It had an awful taste.

Dr.Im: If you didn't have a nice time, why didn't you leave?

SeoHyun: I don't want to displease CS. He seems to be having a lot of fun. It was like he and his friends all went over-the-top excited. They were all hyper, except me.

Dr.Im: So you felt left out?

SeoHyun: A little... I went to the toilet later. I feel like I'm going to puke...

Dr.Im: Why?

SeoHyun: I don't know... the more I drink, the more I feel like puking. It upsets my stomach.

Dr.Im: Oh... but, you still continue drinking after you return from the toilet?

SeoHyun: Yeah, I feel like I have to. Otherwise, I'm afraid that CS might think that I'm not enjoying the party.

Dr.Im: So... did you feel better after vomiting?

SeoHyun: Yeah... I don't know why, but I feel so hyper too after vomiting. I started dancing, and... and... CS... he kissed me.

Dr.Im: Kiss? You like that?

SeoHyun: Yes. He is my boyfriend, of course I like everything about him. But...

Dr.Im: But what?

SeoHyun: I wanted to be at the club with CS longer. But... they soon said they are leaving.

Dr.Im: Leaving? Where are you all going?

SeoHyun: We took a taxi... back to the park behind my school.

Dr.Im: All of you? Why?

SeoHyun: I don't know... CS said we should play somewhere else now. AHHHH!!!!

Dr.Im: *surprised* What happened?

SeoHyun: Oh nothing... CS hugged me from behind without notice and I dropped on to the grass. Hehehe... *talking to CS* Saranghae...

Dr.Im: You love him a lot, don't you?

SeoHyun: Yes... Hehe... CS ah... WHY?

Dr.Im: Huh?

SeoHyun: CS ah! Stop... stop...

Dr.Im: SeoHyun-shii...

SeoHyun: CS AH! DON'T! STOP! STOP! HELP! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! *sobbing hardly*

Dr.Im: SeoHyun-shii... please remain calm. SeoHyun-shii... *putting a hand on to SeoHyun's shoulders*

SeoHyun: NO! NO! DON'T COME NEAR ME! DON'T TOUCH ME! ARGH!!!!!!!! *clawing wildly with her hands to the empty space*

Dr.Im: SeoHyun-shii... when I count to 3, you're back to the hospital room. 1...2...3... Hello, SeoHyun.

SeoHyun: Huh? *flustered, confused and surprised with a face covered in tears*

Dr.Im: Yes, that was just a flashback. Now, you're in present time.

SeoHyun: Oh...? But... but... they were...were... * started crying uncontrollably*

Dr.Im: They were what, SeoHyun-shii?

SeoHyun: Tear... tearing off my clothes!